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wakeiseiyo) wrote2007-09-02 10:48 am
wakeiseiyo) wrote2007-09-02 10:48 am
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Earthquake! (And a few bitty aftershocks)
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Today's the three-year mark. I remembered BEFORE midnight this year, rather than 75% through the day last year. I guess because my brain keeps saying "First Friday of the school year" not "Sep 2nd" and... my brain is a sad and pathetic place to be at times.
All things considered, I'm doing well. Not going to the head-doc anymore (too damn much money for not enough results, and he's NOT much help - if he smiles and nods while I babble in carefully-planned detail about killing coworkers, I really don't think he's listening). I still miss Dad a ridiculously great deal, but I'm moving on more effectively than I ever could in the past. I have no doubt a great deal of that is due in part to a job that doesn't send me home to drink at the end of the day because of stress and misery. Kinda hard to find an even keel when you don't even have 'normal' on your compass. I'm able to let go of old stuff more and more - I've started hauling boxes of old books and magazines from the office to donate/sell/dump (I know, it's a crime, but these are old, ratty things that are of no use to anyone), and while I still have more stuff to go through, I've actually cleared enough that I have two empty shelves AND the floor's mostly clear. It's a surprising improvement. What's left is mostly clearing out a cabinet that needs to be removed, and 80% of what's in there is old disks and software that I haven't gone through but should. Maybe when the weather cools a bit - the office gets ALL of the afternoon sun, so it's like an oven after 11:30 am.
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In other news, my latest diet lasted all of 18 hours. I really should go get food at the store to keep at work that's good for me AND filling. Walnuts are doing a damn good job right now filling that niche, but they're rather bland and boring. Ah well.
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Today's the three-year mark. I remembered BEFORE midnight this year, rather than 75% through the day last year. I guess because my brain keeps saying "First Friday of the school year" not "Sep 2nd" and... my brain is a sad and pathetic place to be at times.
All things considered, I'm doing well. Not going to the head-doc anymore (too damn much money for not enough results, and he's NOT much help - if he smiles and nods while I babble in carefully-planned detail about killing coworkers, I really don't think he's listening). I still miss Dad a ridiculously great deal, but I'm moving on more effectively than I ever could in the past. I have no doubt a great deal of that is due in part to a job that doesn't send me home to drink at the end of the day because of stress and misery. Kinda hard to find an even keel when you don't even have 'normal' on your compass. I'm able to let go of old stuff more and more - I've started hauling boxes of old books and magazines from the office to donate/sell/dump (I know, it's a crime, but these are old, ratty things that are of no use to anyone), and while I still have more stuff to go through, I've actually cleared enough that I have two empty shelves AND the floor's mostly clear. It's a surprising improvement. What's left is mostly clearing out a cabinet that needs to be removed, and 80% of what's in there is old disks and software that I haven't gone through but should. Maybe when the weather cools a bit - the office gets ALL of the afternoon sun, so it's like an oven after 11:30 am.
--
In other news, my latest diet lasted all of 18 hours. I really should go get food at the store to keep at work that's good for me AND filling. Walnuts are doing a damn good job right now filling that niche, but they're rather bland and boring. Ah well.