和 敬 西 洋

It has been a long and busy weekend. I've decided on the nightstand option I want (Billy 3-shelf bookcase from Ikea with the frosted glass door option - the whole thing is $75, and 40" high, rather than a $300, 22" high nightstand from most-everywhere-else AND has storage space!), and today, I looked into Target.com's lighting options. And found this. And promptly (after getting sweaty and filthy in the garage helping Mom clean so she can put her car away someday) went tearing off to Target to buy it. And snagged a low-watt bulb, though I suspect it will be replaced/returned - it pops loudly when it sputters to life, which is Not Reassurring At All. We'll see. Maybe it's like the flourescents at work that flicker for the first few hours of life. The lamp looks awesome, though, and aside from one small gaffe during construction (put the filler caps in the wrong end), is PERFECT as a bedside something - it's got a shelf at just the right height to put a book on when I'm not reading it. Very cool.

Heard from a potential deputy for Waterbearing. (The other person who emailed me ages ago I have not heard from since, and she did not respond to my reply email to her, so... I assume she won't be making it? I'll email her asking if she is going to be my deputy when it comes time to finalize the gate book's staff list. We'll see.) This is good, but the bad side is that everything except the rentals is apparently coming out of my own personal funds until a reimbursement check can be cut. This is bad - I'm hemmoraging money as we speak - putting out another $300 on supplies is Not Okay At All, especially when that $300 or so will be accruing interest on my credit card until it can be paid off. (I really wish I didn't have to put money into my room right now, but I'm literally climbing over piles of things in my room and my office just to get to my computer, closet, etc. I still need a new desk chair, too, which is another $100 out of pocket [the cheaper ones were neither comfortable nor adjustable] *grumble* )

So, I'm sitting here trying to email other staff members with some dignity intact, and I'm sniffling and crying and so goddamned frustrated with this whole process it's not even funny.

And I've been so caught up in the chaos of the last 3 days that I forgot to refill my prescription, and I now won't have time to go to the pharmacy until next Saturday, unless Mom is willing to pick it up and let me reimburse her. (It's not a major problem - the Pill is not necessarily conducive to my good health so much as my continued serenity on certain fronts that remain largely unexplored and often abandoned. But it IS a pain in the ass when my life Monday through Friday goes from 8am to 10pm and the pharmacy hours do not.)

I also emailed BPAL and am awaiting a response, because my order went from a pending authorization on my card to neither pending nor completed transaction - it just VANISHED. I'm hoping they got the order and are processing it, because I'd rather not fight ANOTHER monetary battle if I can help it.

And now, to finish a work-related project that's been sitting in my to-do pile most of this month. I also need to take my INS 21 books back to work, and study them after hours at my desk - taking them home has just resulted in them sitting here collecting dust by the computer. Guh.

Hopefully, I won't get myself fired for foul language and inappropriate conduct (like death threats) in finding out why my FSA was suddenly cancelled at the end of February, when I'm paying for it through May. I really need to believe it's a fixable computer error, because if it isn't, I'm not sure I can conduct myself in a manner appropriate to a grown adult. I may well scream, cry, throw a fit, and then throw something heavy and/or sharp at the nose of the offending party.

I *would* misplace my Waterbearing notebook with all my scribbles from the last War when I need it most.


Fuck.