Oof.

Today has been a strangely low day, and I can't quite put my finger on why. Maybe, for all that I love the rainy weather, grey days *do* affect my moods. Maybe it was because I had very little to keep my brain busy and the day dragged out. All of the above and then some, perhaps.

The only thing I don't feel guilty about today is not going to Tea yesterday. That's probably a bit telling. (And really, it was for more reasons than just not being up to the drive: Sensei is notoriously mercurial, and her 'not minding one bit' that her students wouldn't be at this Sunday's ochakai could very easily change course in the blink of an eye to open resentment and backhanded remarks about the whole affair - ESPECIALLY when she loves to complain that HER teacher is often unfair and mercurial. I'm sensing a trend, folks. "Duck and cover" works for more than earthquake drills.)

I think I'm mostly annoyed that I have not been Nearly Productive Enough this week after a rather successful weekend - cleaned my room, did laundry, etc. -- all tangible things that feel successful. The last few work days have, instead, been a mix of spreadsheets and other electronic data that just isn't especially satisfying, no matter how many lines I cross off my to-do list.

Today has been a resounding 'meh'.