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Sep. 20th, 2006 09:05 amHolding onto anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned. -- Buddha
Yeah. . .
Mom is making me inexplicably angry lately. It's nothing new; she never could handle boundaries (physical, mental, emotional), and with Dad gone, there is no buffer zone left. She can listen to him when he would say 'give her space' about me, but if I ask for it? No go. I suppose I could be 35, married, and living across the country, and she'd still see me as some 4-year-old that needed constant hovering. (No, not raising, or even constructive attention. Just that obnoxious, I'm-in-your-space-so-neener hovering.) Pisses me right off, it does.
I'm really starting to wish moving out was easy. I don't want to leave the house, I just want to get away from Mom. Argh.
Yeah. . .
Mom is making me inexplicably angry lately. It's nothing new; she never could handle boundaries (physical, mental, emotional), and with Dad gone, there is no buffer zone left. She can listen to him when he would say 'give her space' about me, but if I ask for it? No go. I suppose I could be 35, married, and living across the country, and she'd still see me as some 4-year-old that needed constant hovering. (No, not raising, or even constructive attention. Just that obnoxious, I'm-in-your-space-so-neener hovering.) Pisses me right off, it does.
I'm really starting to wish moving out was easy. I don't want to leave the house, I just want to get away from Mom. Argh.